kahlua

as far as im concerned there are two main kinds of vanity.

there is standard issue vanity, which we are all guilty of. it drives us to look our best and makes us want to be appealing to others.

then there is problem vanity. this sort of vanity is not so much an issue for the vain one, but for the vain ones friends.

this sort of vanity involves constantly promoting ones self in shallow manners. such as, consistantly spending two hours to get ready, to go do very little. spending two hours in a mirror to do just some make up and hair is problem vanity. it is a problem when vanity gets in the way of your friendships. for instance, making your boyfriend (or girlfriend, mom, best friend, chihauhau) wait for you constantly because your infront of the mirror. not only is this vain, but its rude. if you care about the person who is waiting, you would have enough respect to not make them wait on your vanity. its rather disgusting, really.

that said, i think maybe you all can understand why i am hesitant to post pictures of myself on a regular basis.

i do enjoy others journals more when they have lots of pictures.

so, i dont post because my comps are both effed up and cant do pics at the moment. so i have to use my sarahjanes comp.

Further research into my fears of posting pics revealed, i dont mind it when others post pics of themselves alot. as previously stated, i enjoy these journals. However, i dont enjoy reading comments about how cute sexy hot and attractive a person is. not when they come from that person themselves, constantly. and reading others comments agreeing with the subjects vanity, repulses me. reinforcing something so negative is not encouraging.

im all for confidence, but the line between conficence and vanity has been concealed and redrawn on with eyeliner.

and its nowhere near the real pivot point.

these things all remid me just a bit too much of a good friend gone very bad.

gone very shallow. very vain. very wicked. and i dont like seeing signs of these things in other people. it puts me on edge because i wont be treated like that again. plus, i dont feel that when a person acts like that, they are truly as good as they make themselves out to be.

that said, im willing to post more of my "vanity" pictures because they are fun. its an insite into my life and my world. maybe that is intresting to some. i dont know. but if i enjoy others journals, surely someone may enjoy mine. i just wont be talking about how fuckin hot and cute i am in these.....a bit to her-esque.

ps she wanted to be a suicidegirl so she lied to everyone and said she was and when the rad sarahjane became a girl and realized her lie, she stopped talking to us all together. lies, they dont do a person any favors in the end.




who you callin vain, bitch??