kahlua

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holy hell...or some sort of hell...oh wow....
ive never ever known my life to spin out of control before. ive always been something of a self control freak...now almost nothings in my hands.


i am finding it very hard to stay motivated. im finding it very hard to know where to begin or how to prioritize. im finding nothing. im going outta my damn skull (in a bad way)


i am doing my best. i am trying to remember, no matter what comes out of this, its what i make of it that will be the difference.


its just....rather daunting when i look ahead and i dont know what i see, but what i can find is overwhelming.

just send your happy vibes. the good karma.

im still somewhat in shock that something like this really did happen. people really are willing to screw someone over if its (mistakenly) in their best intrest to do so...and well...the other thing thats bothering me.

this is really where my life is.

wow.

heads up. be the little engine that DID


=)

really.

get at it with the happy vibes. i need them more than i have before because now is the time that strength and outlook are to be pulled up and relied on, and right now, they got a whole hell of a lot to hold up.