kahlua

do you want to hear a very beautifull song, brought through with a stunning voice? listen to ''ride on'' by nuke and the living dead.

swoon.


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do you want to make me pouty??? stand me up. ive been stood up alot in the past few months.



and by alot i mean...like....3 times. twice by the same guy and the last time wasnt really being stood up but just somebody not being where they said theyd be after they said i should go.

wtf?

well i know...its cause i live in a wierd place where there arent guys for gals like me.


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this is what my hair sort of looks like now. im in the process of becoming a red head which is clsoer to my natural color anyhow



and i think its wierd how lighting makes a pictuer totally washed out or all fuzzy like



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GREAT SMEGGIN WALRUS TUSKS, BATMAN!!!




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YEAH seriously OHHHHH GII-III-IRRLLL Im with you its a dream!!

god seriously. nuke and the living dead. im telling you. wow.

a voice to make a ghoulette die athousand orgamsmic deaths

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id drink his formehldahyde.



get drunk on it.

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i drew a pretty picture. when i figure out how to use me scanner ill scan er on up fer ya. its true. ill do it. just you watch.

also lookee finally a picture of me smiley.

uh

it doesnt really show up in full face pics well....



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and so you kn ow how im workin towards buyin me a stand up??

this man is my inspiration my idol my object of lust....oh so much...



do you know who he is?

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lust

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the seattle tatoo convention was amazing. i met a hot nessa girl. and lots of fabulous artists and a myspace friend of mine and i got soem fab new art.

i FUCKING love tony ciavarro and kelly gormely andt hey both were there so that was all sortsa fab. i cant wait till im in a convention working.

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man seriously. walmart is full of the weirdest fucks and pricks and shits

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lust

im awake because of you im awake

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im going to give up on finding someone to be with. im not intrested in serious relationships, just....like i want to be with somebody adn just be with them and just them with me, but im not intrested in that love forever stuff.

but im not even holding out hopes on that anymore. i still want my gravity back, but maybe i shoudl just move on from him. i think thats gone twisted away. but i hope not.

i cant do anythign about it thats the frustrating part. it hasnt stopped me from being intrested in other people which is good but hes still in the back of my mind.

unifinished bussiness and all.

oh

at least it wasnt unrequited intrest.

thats a hard one to take. im glad i didnt have to

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oh oh oh! the song is on now.

ride on the devils on his way..........

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when i was in seattle i saw a memorial for the ravers who were murderd at the zombie rave on capitol hill a little while ago.

wheres the plur in that????

of all the groups of people to take out irrational hatred and acts of violence on, someone chose ravers???

id like to feel some justice could be done or some lesson could come from it....but nothing is to be learned.

i didnt know these kids. but if id never moved out of seattle area its quite likely ida been there, because there any rocka/psychobilly kids around my area. and ravers are my second love, and when shit was hard for me in middle school and early high school, when i didnt fit in, the raver kids, the few i went to school with, always took me in.

loved me and respedted me and included me, as is the way of the raver.

ride on

rave on

how could anyone do that??? how could anyone have that in them? to murder a boy in neon bracelets who goes by the name sushi??? i wish id been blessed enough to encounter those kids before they were stolen from us.


i probably would have known them if id stayed in everett

rave on kids.


i bet heaven throws one hell of a rave