Today is my birthday am now 41 years old. It's been a while senice I posted a blog, a lot has changed in that time the main things are no longer work for maplin as went bankrupt start of the year been made redundant from a job that I loved working at is a major kick in the balls.
The other is been with my girl friend for now a year also. Here is the kicker I seem to not be able to open up my heart let my feeling flow out towards her. Ok the reasons why this is dew to being lied to and cheated on so may times. I think it am holding back and protecting my heart from being hurt again. Am I being selfish or am I scared to open up.