โจ10 years ago, Suicidegirls changed my life. Shortly after graduating from school, I came across the Suicidegirls. I fell in love with the message and mission created by these incredible and empowered women. All I could dream about was what if I could be so empowered, what if I could feel so beautiful and incredible in my own skin?โจ
10 years ago, I had no love for myself, and just the task of becoming confident enough to apply to be a SG model was just a dream, a fantasy.
Throughout the next several years, Suicidegirls, Suicidegirls, S U I C I D E G I R L S was all I could think about. It was still a dream I wanted to chase, a dream I wanted to make real, and I decided to let myself try.
The journey wasn't easy. I really sucked at taking pictures, I was so awkward at posing, my photographer was a creep, and it was clear I had no confidence in any of the photos shot.
But I kept trying. My dream wasn't even to become a fully Pink Suicide Girl, but just to submit a photo set that was accepted and to be an SG hopeful; with all of these factors, it seemed impossible.
More years passed, I struggled with deep depression, a divorce and a sudden loss of several loved ones. Still, I dreamed of modeling for SG, and still, I kept trying; my photos were looking better, my poses became more natural, and a confidence that wasn't there before had started to glimmer.
Still, Life threw more challenges my way: domestic abuse, hurricanes demolishing my house, and becoming a mother. Doubt started to crawl inside of me during the struggle to gain my pre-pregnancy body back, and post partum depression, "Could I Even Still Try to become a Suicide Girl?"
I had a better photographer now, and I had the support of friends and family around me. Draft photo shoots were shot to use to submit for SG, but my image quality wasn't the correct sizing. Small obstacles kept arriving, but I kept shooting until the day Maenad Madness was shot. Then...
Finally, after 10 years of fantasizing and striving, my dream is finally a reality: I'm a Hopeful๐๐คฉโจ My first official set, "Maenad Madness," for SG, is Live in Member Review as of yesterday! I've been on cloud nine since the moment it dropped and I feel like all of the support that I received from everyone has been phenomenal and unbelievably incredible.
I never would have tried to feel so confident about myself, I never would have tried to love myself so hard, I never would have kept pushing myself past my boundaries and to continue my journey if it had never been for Suicide Girls.
Suicide Girls changed my life.๐
Thank you, to all the magical creatures of Suicide Girls, for continuously igniting my inner sparkโจ๐ฅ
@penny @missy
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