kadium

Feeling more John Lydon than Joe Strummer at the moment. More cynical and nihilistic than anything even remotely idealistic. Part of it is work.

Maybe a lot of it is work.

Part of it is not having enough Clash in my life at the moment. I should listen to them more to help perk me up against everything that wants to beat me down. They have that power.

Come to think of it I've haven't been listening to much music at all lately. My reading has slowed as well. I make up for both with growing absent-mindedness and an inability to focus on anything for very long. Everything is a slog.

I wish my old therapist was still in the business. I wish my Amazon (as in fierce and female) friend wasn't so distant. I wish Dawn was someone I saw more often instead of the time I generally fall asleep. People wish a lot of things.

At least I'm writing again though. It helps clear the head.