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Almost two weeks of my new nightshift and I'm still not quite into it. The hours are great - waking up in the afternoon and not going to sleep until dawn has always been my preferred way of life. But after almost nine years of dayshift and getting into a daywalker kind of lifestyle, I don't quite know how to live with these hours anymore. I still haven't had two days off in a row yet either, so my days off don't feel relaxing since I feel in a rush to run around and do things and make up for time I've felt I've lost with the switch.

I'm not a zombie, walking around barely conscious like my coworkers. I just don't know how to function or what to do. I'm lost. It's a bigger switch than I expected, especially now that I'm getting older. I used to never mind feeling unsettled, but I guess the years are starting to show.

To top it off I spent this evening off watching Curb Your Enthusiasm and The Wrestler with a friend. Curb was great, but this is the second time I've walked away from an Aranofsky film almost wanting to put a gun in my mouth. Great movie with great performances, but very depressing. At least it wasn't as miserable as my Requiem for a Dream experience. I saw that one on a date.