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another question is: why would you want to be on here again and not talk to mike? or a few others that you liked talking to before? the whole thing borders on the bizarre.

A funny thing is, someone I don't know had posted a mysterious, cryptic comment to my journal a few weeks ago. It was the kind of comment I would have expected from you. I read into it very deeply, and believed that you were sort of keeping an eye on me from afar, and wanted me to know that you were still here for me. I felt a great warmth from that. The next time he posted, also cryptic, seemed equally as insightful as a comment I would expect from someone who knows me like you do. His profile seemed to have "clues" to lead me to believe it was you. I was still unsure, and asked him who he was, but he never addressed that, just kept leaving posts--only to me, at first. He's even lived in Utah for 32 years or so....It was a little unsettling, but comforting at the same time. I figured that you were just uncomfortable posting to me, since you didn't like to when others were posting to me also.

So, that is an example of "breadcrumbs" as you put it. If you really wanted to be found, you wouldn't have tried so hard to hide, and would have made some attempt to contact me. Also, this story disproves your earlier journal about how I wasn't receptive to your "game".

I really believed you when you said that girls freak out on you all the time. The key phrase there is "all the time"--nothing happens to someone all the time unless they are acting in an immature, extremely bizarre way. I do recall a story about you posing as a girl once before, and talking to men......

I am sorry that you must make all relationships go "freaky" in order to cover up whatever your reasons are for losing interest in the girls. Blaming the end on the girl every time is a cowardly thing to do. I hope you figure out what it is you are really looking for. I really mean that.
love, j