k_belmont

bleh... i've been feeling ill lately... allergies have torn at the back of my throat for about a week now, but finally the song seems to be returning to me... my life has taken a rather interesting turn as of late... i have yet to determine if it is a direction headed that ends in light or not... constantly i can be found complaining of loneliness, but lately, have been without it... nothing has been determined of our standings as of yet... yet, i'm unsure if it is the answer which will finalize me... i've been happy as of late... but jealousy beckons me here and now, with said jealous feelings i have never really dealt with before... the being that i've been spending my time with is known to be a rather flighty individual when it comes to the accompaniment of another male member of the species... cheating was an issue in past relationships of mine and has risen in me a worried state for the current... i've watched her hit on others as an almost constant... especially when one of these beings plays a large role in her past relationships... jealous am i of the things that i see, and i hate that feeling... as it is a rare feeling in me... i know something is there, and it could blossom into something beautiful indeed... yet, we haven't really spoken about where things are headed, or as to our current standings... i'm constantly lost in something or another, and this is the what i'm lost in now... whether it be where an echo dwells or where a ceaseless wind blows, something in my hollow is always befuddling me about something or another that affects my soul... *le sigh*

maybe it is just that i'm having a rough day...

as shakespeare once said, "two loves i have, of comfort and despair..." i'm just so tired of questioning everything... i should just fall in line with the flow... but questioning the reasoning behind just about everything is what i can often be found pissing my time away on...