To follow up on that last vague blog, I have to tell you all something uncomfortably personal about my uterus.
My birth control ran out about a week ago. After the way I had to pick up my birth control changed, becoming a lot less convenient (can only pick up a month's worth at a time), I have been much less tentative and much more moody..
This week I have been feeling really weird. Sensitive, maternal, and mushy. I've been obsessively thinking about babies and being a mother and all sorts of nonsense. Today I bawled after going into my little sister's daycare with my mother. Uncontrollably bawled. It was awful. I've had several similar moments over the course of the last week, and I've chalked it up to being hormonal from missing my birth control.
Anyway, what disturbs me most is the feeling of wanting to be pregnant and wanting to have a baby, when, intellectually, I know that I don't want to have a child.
My mom made fun of me a bunch, but it has been a really rough week considering. I got my birth control filled today, but I can't start it again for another few weeks. Ugh, I'm not looking forward to this weepiness, on top of being lonely and ridiculously horny.
My birth control ran out about a week ago. After the way I had to pick up my birth control changed, becoming a lot less convenient (can only pick up a month's worth at a time), I have been much less tentative and much more moody..
This week I have been feeling really weird. Sensitive, maternal, and mushy. I've been obsessively thinking about babies and being a mother and all sorts of nonsense. Today I bawled after going into my little sister's daycare with my mother. Uncontrollably bawled. It was awful. I've had several similar moments over the course of the last week, and I've chalked it up to being hormonal from missing my birth control.
Anyway, what disturbs me most is the feeling of wanting to be pregnant and wanting to have a baby, when, intellectually, I know that I don't want to have a child.
My mom made fun of me a bunch, but it has been a really rough week considering. I got my birth control filled today, but I can't start it again for another few weeks. Ugh, I'm not looking forward to this weepiness, on top of being lonely and ridiculously horny.
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chipdanger:
Aw you'll get in a rhythm and overcome this! In the meantime, use a condom! 
voiddrgn:
I remember when my wife was on birth control afte the birth of our son. Jeez I couldn't even touch her while she was on it. It made her act really weird then I told her to quit taking it cuz it was not worth the trouble it caused for us. I hop you start feeling better 