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You know you're manic feminine
when pitted candles start looking like back-lit embryos
you don't take baths to get clean
you couldn't if you tried
[Ivory dried]
you bathe to purge your hate
to sedate the pores that secrete womanly poison
you'd like to drown
"fall asleep" in a lulling bob
one last watery sob
but what stops you is womanly resolve
what stops you...
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My weekends are always long but I never get anything done. I did get all of my laundry washed finally. Feels good.

My house is a mess. I'm a mess, comparatively.

I'm applying for SoonerCare (poor people state health care) so I might be able to get some kind of medication to regulate what I think is manic-depressive disorder. Also, it would be nice to...
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I LOVE Strangers With Candy. I'm watching the movie right now.

"Hey, the science fair! Are you thinking about signing up?" - Megawatti
"Nah, I'm thinking about pussy. Science fair is for queers." - Jerry Blank

I've been walking to and from school/work because I finally ran out of my school money and had no gas. It was drizzly and cold out today, so not fun. I feel better walking, though. Plus, I spend like $30-35 a week in parking alone. Ridiculous.

Last night I did math homework and studied for my Cultural Geography test (thinking it was today). When I...
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I think I'm coming down with something.. My face and brain and body have all been hot and expanding today, since last night. Last night I took 4 Nyquil gel capsules to try to get to sleep after I had been up until 1:30ish. It knocked me out but I woke up with congested eyes and a puffy brain. Glad I didn't have class today,...
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I can never sleep. I hope four Nyquil capsules will correct this, just this one night. I really need the sleep and the dreams.

Driving around town
like I always do
Sunday Monday through

American car
American shoes
American jeans
American blue

It's a special day
not to me
It's a sacred day
not to me

Thinking down now
like I usually do
Sunday Monday through

Islamic Society of [blank town]
praying godless, hope
it's not burnt down

It's a sad day
but not to me
It's a bad...
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To follow up on that last vague blog, I have to tell you all something uncomfortably personal about my uterus.

My birth control ran out about a week ago. After the way I had to pick up my birth control changed, becoming a lot less convenient (can only pick up a month's worth at a time), I have been much less tentative and much more...
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Jittery uterus

Harem room for one

No one visits,

no one cums.

Red nail curtains

red innards.

Suppress pain

thrust inward.

Goodbye family

Goodbye Love

All alone

cunt cove

All alone

soul slave.

Can't revolt

Won't behave

Seeking knights

bedding knaves.

I think the red curtains have magnified my already frustrated sex drive, leaving it in hyperbolic distress.

QQ

They will be fucking magic if I ever get anyone in my clutches. Sigh