jynastar

its an asshatish day today and i cant figure out for the life of me if i'm the ass.
you know that type of day that you just want to slam your head in the door just to see if anyone even notices?
well heres my last 24 hours in no particular order.
forwarned about something last night only to have em be kinda a...
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working on a resume...dear lord. was trying to help but you know how that went. more on that later on..long entry comes tomarrow i need sleep

fall on black days.
its been a way weird ass week. i feel like im out of the loop on a few things. apparently the split between and might be for good.
shes down in la apparently and sounds like shes staying there. dear lord.
man i feel like i have been under a rock. the last i had heard about la was some visting,...
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so much strangeness in the air. i am always pulled in a bunch of different directions at once. but that is how i like it.
i listened to a few people talk about thier problems and realized that if i dont keep my hands busy and work on everything i can throw myself into then i'm useless.
i have been editing my resume for the...
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this sounds like a terrible thing to say but you get to that point where you are just too mature for half of the shit going around you. i was at a party tongiht that was pretty good except for the fact that a few freinds of mine were..well
i dont know. its hard to explain but just watching everyone talk around me i realized...
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God Fabian: i just want to give you my pure attention everytime i see you and blow your fucking mind away and i will undoubtedly fall completely but is there time to make things the way 2 people ever want them to be? not now no
God Fabian: when i say you i mean a love
God Fabian: you know


uh wow...help...someone...anyone..sam attack!

its another crazy night online. stupid sam is making me send him pics again dear lord. i have so much to write about but i have to do it later. too many ims bothering me
hahah
i love talking to everyone at night but shit i cant get a word in without people yapping at me.

kinda adviceish for the day: when you can look me in the eye and tell me you dont love me, i will leave.
in about three of my freinds relationships, its happened in the last two days.
i think im next on the list.

its an intersting prespective to talk about everyone elses failed relationships rather than focus on my own fuck ups.
especially a fourth party i have learned is the best to have in the chat. now if i could find someone to solve jameson's issues.
but watching everyone i know and love have their heart violently ripped out, them being jilted as their heart is tosses...
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a freind said they only do what their heart belives is right. i really am wondering about the whole deal with and such.
knowing that was back in town, i got in a talk with patrick last night about the whole thing with as seeing he doesnt know the half of the story.
it turned into a pretty comical chat. i tod him also mikey...
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