jynastar

as retarded as it sounds, i think i am boycotting all sexual activity.
not that people are lining up to fling themselves at me in a frenzy of horniess or something like that.
still its like this, i'm trying to just avoid the physical intimacy issues because i feel its tearing about the last prospect i had for a functional relationship.
after talking to a few freinds on the issue we are about to start the celibacy by choice club.
membership is quite simple. all you have to do is just not get laid for a period of 30 days or longer.
i cant even find someone that i am even intrested in having that sort of relationship with right now.
i hate when relationships are just based on having sex. no talking, no connection unless it involves the neither regions and engorged tingly parts.
i dont even care anymore.
i talked to a bit on the phone today. got in a little fight over some shit which ended in laughter as we screamed at each other for awhile.
i miss him. he needs to come home so i can have my freind back.
and i had a lovely chat, thinking about going out this week for something.
i might go see co and gg up at school next week depending on how it all works out. would be nice to spend a weekend with them.
i cant make up for all the shit from the past but i am trying here.