so i decided to put in the model application even though my pics arent done yet. all i can say is thatdarkskyy1 (mikey) is gunna do something intresting with electrical tape, blacklights etc...i think it would be kinda hot. i dont know what you all would think. anyone like the idea? we need ideas damnit!
now that my little sister has stopped iming me every thirty seconds i can write more extensivley in my journal. i sent a few articles to sg so i hope they decide to run them. until then, i can just try to please the masses in here.
something special happened tonight though that made me smile. i got to hang out with
without here boyfreind around. i wasnt sure how to take the situation but we were laying across the couch and watching the end of riding in cars with boys when she reached over and grabbed a hold of my arm when i went to stand up.i looked into her eyes so large and fragile like a startled deer in headlights. she touched my arm with her small fingers gripping me tighly. "what is it sweetheart?" i asked. she smiled at me again. i dont recall the words she said because i was watching her cherry lips split apart and the bewildered spell i was under, i heard the tinkle of silver bells in her voice. her long treessed looked redish brown in the light sweeping over her shoulders and spilling down to the center of her back. when she pulled me down beside her i was in heaven...in rapture..lost in her savy smile.
i was trying to hard not to just blurt out what i was thinking as i cuddled up next to her watching the swell of her breast rise and fall in her tight black tank top clinging to her size 0 body. most thought she looked a little too thin but i thought she was just perfect the way she was.
i leaned in and brushed the loose tendrils of copper hair from her clear brown eyes and gave her a little kiss on her cheek. she smiled and a slight smile escaped from between her cherry lips. i dont know what to say at this point. i keep thinking to myself i think i love you. i would do anything for you.
she looks at me again. we ended up watching each other for a long time, the fire burned behind her eyes and i could feel the heat rising off her. she was totally into this. she had to be.
just before the moment had ended, i walked outside to have a cigarette and clear my thoughts. i texted messaged a freind to ask what to do. i knew he would be impartial.
was a good friend to both , her boyfreind and myself. the one thing that i did know though was had been in love with her at one point as well so he told me that i should just go with it and worry about everything else later. i knew that was a flirt, a bisexual beauty that just about an entire city drooled over as if she were the most perfect angel on the earth. in fact everyone was entranced by her. and she was sweet as well which is why we all adored her. basically said "go for it and see what she does. i regret not taking advantage of the situation i once had. i could have been with her before (insert boyfreinds name here) but i got scared."
the other fact of course to the matter was was pratically a virgin at that point and feared the whole situation. he hated confrontation. the closest he had ever come to being beyound freinds with was scoring her some nude modeling jobs after her stripping job came to a close.
so when i came back in and said my goodnight to her, i had the courage to reach over and give a sweet little kiss. she didnt seem phased by my behavior, she slipped her tounge in my mouth running it before my teeth until i finally let her push it to the back of my throat.
i knew that she would never cheat on ber boyfreind though. for her a little kiss wasnt cheating though. it was just a freindly sign of affection.
when i woke from my after work nap i had realized that i had a little dream about the possiblities that could happen with .
this is pretty much my little dream. laugh if you want. if dreams are the insight of the soul, then i guess i am just saying to myself that i really more than anything want to be with her. how stupid is that.
tomarrow i will tell ya the dream...i'm such a tease. besides im too tired to type now
now that my little sister has stopped iming me every thirty seconds i can write more extensivley in my journal. i sent a few articles to sg so i hope they decide to run them. until then, i can just try to please the masses in here.
something special happened tonight though that made me smile. i got to hang out with
without here boyfreind around. i wasnt sure how to take the situation but we were laying across the couch and watching the end of riding in cars with boys when she reached over and grabbed a hold of my arm when i went to stand up.i looked into her eyes so large and fragile like a startled deer in headlights. she touched my arm with her small fingers gripping me tighly. "what is it sweetheart?" i asked. she smiled at me again. i dont recall the words she said because i was watching her cherry lips split apart and the bewildered spell i was under, i heard the tinkle of silver bells in her voice. her long treessed looked redish brown in the light sweeping over her shoulders and spilling down to the center of her back. when she pulled me down beside her i was in heaven...in rapture..lost in her savy smile.
i was trying to hard not to just blurt out what i was thinking as i cuddled up next to her watching the swell of her breast rise and fall in her tight black tank top clinging to her size 0 body. most thought she looked a little too thin but i thought she was just perfect the way she was.
i leaned in and brushed the loose tendrils of copper hair from her clear brown eyes and gave her a little kiss on her cheek. she smiled and a slight smile escaped from between her cherry lips. i dont know what to say at this point. i keep thinking to myself
i think i love you. i would do anything for you.
she looks at me again. we ended up watching each other for a long time, the fire burned behind her eyes and i could feel the heat rising off her. she was totally into this. she had to be.
just before the moment had ended, i walked outside to have a cigarette and clear my thoughts. i texted messaged a freind to ask what to do. i knew he would be impartial.
was a good friend to both , her boyfreind and myself. the one thing that i did know though was had been in love with her at one point as well so he told me that i should just go with it and worry about everything else later. i knew that was a flirt, a bisexual beauty that just about an entire city drooled over as if she were the most perfect angel on the earth. in fact everyone was entranced by her. and she was sweet as well which is why we all adored her. basically said "go for it and see what she does. i regret not taking advantage of the situation i once had. i could have been with her before (insert boyfreinds name here) but i got scared."
the other fact of course to the matter was
was pratically a virgin at that point and feared the whole situation. he hated confrontation. the closest he had ever come to being beyound freinds with was scoring her some nude modeling jobs after her stripping job came to a close.
so when i came back in and said my goodnight to her, i had the courage to reach over and give
a sweet little kiss. she didnt seem phased by my behavior, she slipped her tounge in my mouth running it before my teeth until i finally let her push it to the back of my throat.
i knew that she would never cheat on ber boyfreind though. for her a little kiss wasnt cheating though. it was just a freindly sign of affection.
when i woke from my after work nap i had realized that i had a little dream about the possiblities that could happen with
.
this is pretty much my little dream. laugh if you want. if dreams are the insight of the soul, then i guess i am just saying to myself that i really more than anything want to be with her. how stupid is that.
tomarrow i will tell ya the dream...i'm such a tease. besides im too tired to type now