jynastar

long ass fucking night.
i find it funny so many people have been reading this and going who is . i havent really informed too many people know. it doesnt matter. just think earthbound angel with amazing doe eyes and the purist soul of anyone you have ever met. sigh.
nope mikey its not your sweetie. i dont know. maybe i should stop talking at the moment.
things arent going any better in the job search. still doing random freelance work.
i'm going out to stl on friday which will be great to see all my freinds out there. its been a good eight months since i was out there.
one of my best freinds is convinced shes going to die despite the improvements in modern medicine. she told me the other night with a clear far off stare in her eyes that she was no longer afriad to die which scared the crap out of me. i really dont want to hear that you know. i dont fear death either but i dont want to die. the last thing i want is death.
i know that sounds stupid.
its 2 am and i lost my train of thought. time to shut up