jynastar

once again i'm craving junk food hardcore in the middle of the night. i'm starting to wonder if i have a tapeworm or something. scared the crap out of me the other night and was like well maybe you are preganant or something. first off that would be a side effect of actually getting laid. sigh. had sex the other night of course but i...
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lots of loneliness online the last few days. its been a long last couple of days. my brain is about to slide out of my head at this point.
i'm struggling to work on this website, not really sure how to use the software for storyspace as seeing i cant get images to upload yet.
damned thing.

had an intresting convo with p today. he thinks that im afraid to be in love.
its an intresting thought. of course he isnt one to have any room to talk because the boy has spent his whole life running from anyone that cared about him.
still am i?
it makes for an intresting question doesnt it.

long nite. i write later

fucking a dude i swear that i never do shit right. its fucking amazing. i have been really sick fo rthe last few days and the last thing i wanted to hear was the cahtter of a thousand stupid tounges flapping in the breeze about nothing.
still listening to the fights of and which are getting progressivley more intense. i'm hoping they do get married...
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if you like sarcasm and swearing enjoy some cartoons
cat rant

i hate bitching about people but since i know that you are reading this i shall hand over a little piece of my mind.
first off let there be no mistake who this was written for. i dont want all of you to later tell me that you made the mistake and thought it was you.
think .
anyways heres the long and short of...
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today is a little better. had a boring time out at the bar. it was so dead. got to see a few people i missed caz i have been a bum and not really leaving the hosue lately. i hate being poor.
i am the most paranoid person on earth. i think that j is avoiding me and i get this sick feeling in my...
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its an asshatish day today and i cant figure out for the life of me if i'm the ass.
you know that type of day that you just want to slam your head in the door just to see if anyone even notices?
well heres my last 24 hours in no particular order.
forwarned about something last night only to have em be kinda a...
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working on a resume...dear lord. was trying to help but you know how that went. more on that later on..long entry comes tomarrow i need sleep

fall on black days.
its been a way weird ass week. i feel like im out of the loop on a few things. apparently the split between and might be for good.
shes down in la apparently and sounds like shes staying there. dear lord.
man i feel like i have been under a rock. the last i had heard about la was some visting,...
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so much strangeness in the air. i am always pulled in a bunch of different directions at once. but that is how i like it.
i listened to a few people talk about thier problems and realized that if i dont keep my hands busy and work on everything i can throw myself into then i'm useless.
i have been editing my resume for the...
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