justsayfaux

so i finally had a ob interview the other day. it was a group interview and one of my friends was there. it actually went really well. im glad i can handle pressure situations like that because listening to the girl next to me give answers really made me realize im lucky to work well in social situations. i got a call back today and...
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it bums me out when good friends live in a world of self-absorbtion and self-depreication misery. when everything is 'poor me' and they never make the personal commitment to getting out of their rut or bettering themselves. for years ive always let it slide as just a maturity issue, and maybe it is -- but frankly its become a wall between people who would otherwise...
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i just got back from giving blood today. nothing better than being sucked dry and being given a good ol' pink wrap around your arm. i also applied for a job there. keep your fingers crossed -- the collection agencies are really starting to get irritating calling me up at 830am every morning. i mean -- if im unemployed i should at least be able...
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well, im back from the midwest. scary, yes scary. for those of you who have seen the movie Gummo -- i drove through the town of Xenia where the movie takes place. one word -- scary. tornado ravaged towns remind me why ill take my chance with the occasional earthquake. good to be back in the golden state. i think i was the only person...
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travelling man...from hollywood to ohio. here i am now across the states after spending a weekend in hollyweird. one cool thing about the trip -- no one tried to talk to me on the plane and there was a popeyes in the airport in atlanta, georgia. its one of the only major ariports i havent been to -- so that was cool to check it...
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just got back hollywood tonight. need sleep and shower. more to come...

just got back from palo alto and san francisco. went to drive with my friend and his brother. i must say it was quite the relaxing drive/evening. its nice to just chill especially after such a long and harsh two weeks. not harsh in the traditionally bad way -- but harsh in a "i think i should slow down for a couple of days" way....
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Sharp and open
Leave me alone
And sleeping less every night
As the days become heavier and weighted
Waiting
In the cold light
A noise
A scream tears my clothes as the figurines tighten
With spiders inside them
And dust on the lips of a vision of hell
I laughed in the mirror for the first time in a year

I can never say no...
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to switch things up a little -- today was fairly productive. i got all my laundry done that ive been promising myself for 3 days i would finish. i cleaned out my fish tank and went to lunch with some friends. its also my good friend's birthday today -- shes been going through rough times lately so i hope that at least she can focus...
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although this may sound totally chilche after such a long weekend of adventure and insight things dont seem quite the same as they used to. after getting a reasonable amount of sleep and back to performing my duties i figured i would sink back into the depression of normality. wake up, go to school, go to work, come home, eat, go to rehearsal, come home,...
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