justpaul

Well I look forward to starting my life over again. I did it once when I moved up here. I'd say for the worse. up until 18 I had never drank, smoked or done drugs. Since I moved up here I have been to jail, cut myself for a short period of time and just let my life go into a downward spiral. I haven't given up yet though, I never will. This would be the perfect time to leave if only I could afford it right now. I can't get a job and I've seperated myself from most of my friends. I've come up with three places I want to move. Edmonton, back to Charlottetown, or down to Australia. Edmonton, because well it's Edmonton and I have a friend moving down there who was lucky (and spoiled) enough to have her father buy her a condo. Charlottetown because it is, in my opinion the most beautiful place in Canada. I know people down there and it's my home. Australia because I've known someone who lives down there since 13 and I don't think I could find a better friend if I tried.
I think I hate this place so much because I'm too weird for it. Now I may not seem weird here but growing up having every friend tell me I am weird sort of tells me something. Now I'm not saying it's something I don't like. I would never want to be considered normal. I don't see why anyone would. Seems like it would be too boring to me. I can't express myself here, or else I would be a total outcast. And I've been through that before. I just don't want to go back. I don't know, I just need a bigger venue.