justmee

I had a dream that I died. Eric was driving, I was in the passenger seat. I think I said something like "we need some excitement". He said "here's some", and swerved the car across the other lane. We were heading right off the side of a cliff. Even though I was in the car, the feeling was more like falling off a building would be. I thought "now I'll know what it feels like to die", and could feel my head doing crazy things. I can't describe the feeling, but it was really annoying, but not painful. Like someone tugging my brain out of my head, and then nothing. What was really strange is that I died, and then started to wake up in the car. I'm thinking it's because I was coaxing myself awake. I learned to do that when I was little and had scary dreams. Right after I woke up in the car, I woke up in my bed. Relieved.

Now, I know that death dreams don't come true or anything, but I've only had two, including this one, and they are weird. It makes you wonder why the fuck you're having them. I read that it symbolizes major changes in your life, and am thinking that that's the case here. We had "the talk" last night. For the good I hope. Things need to change, I'm bored. We're messy, and poor. All this sadness probably comes from being broke, but throw me a ton of money right now, and I think we'd be in the same damn position.