I had a disturbing call last night...Someone doesn't want to let me go...I hate being trapped into feeling sorry for someone...I don't feel the same about this person & wish they would move on...I can't survive in a relationship of convenience...I want to be with someone who makes me smile...who cares...who understands or atleast tries...& doesn't put guilt trips on me...or stress me out...I feel pretty beat up as it is & am tired of being abused...My X called me again & left me a message...What does she want from me...I wish she could leave me alone...I don't want her making excuses to check up on me or open communication...I don't except the how she took my children away....it was cheap & I can't turn around two weeks later & be her friend to make her happy...I'm here for the kids not her~she left & should be going to her boyfriend instead...bla bla bla...I want my life back...I do have a few things that keep me floating & I just wish they would stop pressuring me...
Thankyou AlexJane for calming me down...was nice that you made time to talk to me...it really sux to be here alone with nobody to talk to or care...I owe you one*
Guess it's time to get the job done so give me the anvil & hold the stake steady...This is only going to hurt for a minute...
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I think I'm just gonna cut way down on my drinking. I've been analyzing what my real problem is, and as far as drinking goes I really don't think it's depressing me. What depresses me is waking up feeling like I drank way too much the night before. So on the rare occasions I drink during the week I'll have only two, and only three on the weekend if I am out.