jurasic

do as i say not as I do...

A few people made a difference in my weekend...I got to say thankyou for putting up with me...I have a terrible memory & am somewhat shy...I try to not be but I just don't always trust people...I have to drink a bunch to let my guard down so I have to say I'm a bit different when sober...I hope that people still accept me when I'm not so retarded...

Quote;"Don't ever fall in love again...it's all over now"~!

I wonder sometimes if this is about me...weird but I made somekind of twisted promiss not to go back to that place...I know what kind of pain it is & how dangerous it would be...So frustrated with being torn...sometimes I wish there was a cure...Maybe that's who I am waiting for...Someone who wakes me up...snaps me out of limbo...Makes me whole*
Then again maybe I was meant to walk the earth alone...not ever knowing peace...I know my place is being a father first but sometimes I wonder can I be both...I once was the bad guy...Something changed inside...The strangest thing is it's too late for me~I missed the last train from paris...It's something I will have to accept...Defeat...it's humbled me & shown me something I should have known already...Rules are there for my protection...I don't listen to them & look what happens to me...serves me right...cause it's my fault this happened to me...I am going to lay in bed to meditate all night about things I have little control over...things that slipped right through my fingers...People I've hurt by not caring about them more...Goodnight to my two littlens...Dad always trys his hardest to pass the time while you are away but obviously it doesn't work... Damn...monday is the worst night of the week for me...