jupitersunrise

my mom called me earlier and left the cutest message. i've been insanely busy all day so i just got a chance to call her back after i got out of class. we were talking, and she mentioned something about noticing that i've lost more weight. she asked if i was ok, and if i was eating correctly. ha! i NEVER thought i'd hear that from my mother. you'd have to know her to understand, i suppose. i've never been good enough, it seems. yes, i've lost more weight. yes, i am eating correctly. no, i do not know what i'm doing to lose weight. people aren't supposed to lose weight over the winter. this is tooooo weird!

today was a good day. yesterday was better because my lover and i had a blast but yeah, today was good too. i'm trying really hard to be more positive about my life. it's not even bad, i don't know why i have been so sad. fucking winter. DIE.

i am making pasta for dinner yet once again. someone give me some ideas of food to buy when i go grocery shopping later on tonight, or possibly tomorrow. i am so bored with what i eat, but i suck at coming up with ideas! only stipulation: i try to keep it healthy. i think i need to incorporate more meat into my diet. well, protein in general. i need a more balanced diet. better food in general. so yeah, ideas!

or anything you want to say to me, i'll be happy you took the time