junkeragentseed

hi. some thoughts, most or all of which are surely not worth recording or reading:

· dear seattle: i do truly love you, and love your cold and your clouds, and do not mind your rain too terribly. but please, no more muggy weather. i thought i left that shit behind in new orleans.

· what is with this human (read: awful) impulse to be the first to spread news, regardless of whether it's good or bad? all day, i felt like telling someone that elliott smith had killed himself. this despite the fact that no one at work would care, or indeed know who elliott smith was, and that i have never really been an elliott smith fan. i felt like a ghoul.

· this morning, i could remember my dreams for the first time in a long while, and, of course, they were nightmares. i dreamt i killed a mother and her two children pulling out of my driveway. and i dreamt that i sobbed for a good long while in front of my father. which made me think, i haven't sobbed in real life in a long time, either. i wondered if i sobbed in my sleep.

· as some (two) of you know, i now have a job that i really like and that pays the bills. only problem is, they have too many people working there right now. i know they won't get rid of me, since i'm one of the two temps there who does any work. but since i am the new guy, i find myself embroiled in machiavellian power struggles with the people already there. a whole lot of shit-talking is going on. none of it by or about me, but still. corporate america is weird, alien territory.

· i am having headaches with increasing frequency. if you were to graph the number of headaches i am having as a continuous function of time, the derivative of that function would be universally positive.

· everyone who said i would ever need to use calculus in my life was wrong.