Okay, it has been too damn long since I have done a Journal entry. I am really just pissed off at this moment in time. I have been on SEVERAL fucking interviews and can't get a damn job. I had Honors at school, worked temp at Volcom and am doing free-lance work and it still isn't good enough for these companies for these piss ass jobs. I am seriously thinking about going back and devoting all my time to Fashion Assassin and opening up a shop, starting a line, and doing it up right this round and telling the rest of the world to F*** off. Just thought I would let you all know what I have been up to.
Gawd I have been lost in my head because I tried the whole normal thing to get a job. Then it was weird I was feeling so pissed off for not being recognzied as a freak in public. That used to piss me off for years when people would stare, and now it pisses me off more that they don't. So guess, what I am dying my hair, putting my extensions back in and not giving a F**Ck what people think anymore. I went through this late twenties thing recently where I thought I had to tone it down and fit in w/ the world. But the answer is inside yourself and not worrying about them. I forgot I think why I never was normal in the first place. Because who can relate to those boring people anyways that haven't a creative streak in their bodies anyways.
And I am dying to get out of the house. I have been in the hideout mode because I was mortified for trying to fit in and feeling even more like a reject. I just don't give a f***Ck anymore. I feel like myself at 19 again only smarter.
Gawd I have been lost in my head because I tried the whole normal thing to get a job. Then it was weird I was feeling so pissed off for not being recognzied as a freak in public. That used to piss me off for years when people would stare, and now it pisses me off more that they don't. So guess, what I am dying my hair, putting my extensions back in and not giving a F**Ck what people think anymore. I went through this late twenties thing recently where I thought I had to tone it down and fit in w/ the world. But the answer is inside yourself and not worrying about them. I forgot I think why I never was normal in the first place. Because who can relate to those boring people anyways that haven't a creative streak in their bodies anyways.
And I am dying to get out of the house. I have been in the hideout mode because I was mortified for trying to fit in and feeling even more like a reject. I just don't give a f***Ck anymore. I feel like myself at 19 again only smarter.
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I think I may be going to Fern's (the punk rock dive bar by my house) with Derby on wednesday to make up for not getting to his birthday party...and maybe I'll see if I can get LucidApathy to come down too and buy him a couple drinks as well, since I didn't make it to his birthday party Saturday night either.
[Edited on Apr 25, 2004 10:50PM]