Ive been staying with my buddies from Into The Storm in Seattle so I can go to school. Shits been tough, emotionally,financially, and mentally. I'm so stressed out, I've been drinking a lot. My relationship is fucked up, and it just hurts so much to love someone who cannot love me. I still feel so unworthy of any love. How could someone love me and if they could, then why dont they. Why am I still alone. I'm tired of having no one to talk to. I' just want a place to be comfortable. i want a bed and a warm bath. and maybe a hand to hold..is that too much to ask for?
I've been making so much art. I paint and draw every day. i sing so much. My friend and I are starting to make music and it will be great. I love that I am learning so much and I want to be independent, but more stable. Mentally I'm so very damaged, Ive been dealing because I have to. But the other day I was just so close to ending shit, everything.. because its just too much sometimes. I just dont know if i can make it. but i want to. i want to be ok.
still heartbroken,still making art
thats all for now
I've been making so much art. I paint and draw every day. i sing so much. My friend and I are starting to make music and it will be great. I love that I am learning so much and I want to be independent, but more stable. Mentally I'm so very damaged, Ive been dealing because I have to. But the other day I was just so close to ending shit, everything.. because its just too much sometimes. I just dont know if i can make it. but i want to. i want to be ok.
still heartbroken,still making art
thats all for now
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hang in there sweetie. <3
I was really sad and depressed about being alone for a very very long time. Suddenly it just clicked. It just got ok. Hold on to the knowledge that that day will come. And everything you have gone through has been a stepping stone to that point. Im still pretty alone most of the time.. nothing has really changed except the way I view the world, and myself. Its in you, babe. And you will find it.