Monday Oct 11, 2010

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Seriously this site makes me feel uglier every time I look at it. I hate my fucking body so much, I cannot get over how much work I put into it and I'm still fucking disgusting.

I am in sever pain right now and the depression is full force. I'm alone, so I carved it into my skin.

This pain of loneliness, loveless, physical pain that is never ending...drugs or love would cure either but neither are available and I know I am unlovable now.

My own parents, do not love me. They have gone off and wont talk to me or help me.
Still living in my aunt's living room, I can't sleep anymore. I've taken up cutting and drugs I have not one person to talk to, not one close friend.
What the fuck am I suppose to do? I don't even want to try. It just gets worse...And any amount of positivity I ever had, has faded. No well wishing is going to help me anymore...blackeyed
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_smurfzilla_:
>_<
i think youre pretty.
and your parents just suck for doing what they did and not being there for you.
youre a good person. youre an awesome person. if they cant see that then its their loss.
alkaline:
HEY!!! My love, do not think that way!!! You are so ridiculously beautiful it kinda kills me, for one. But also, you are not alone. Look how many people care about you! I care about you A LOT and Im just one!! My parents suck, too.. well moms is good now but I spent a lot of years without her in my life and I still dont speak to my father. Just makes you stronger. You can do it on your own and you'll do better than you would with them. No matter the situation, it's always how we deal with it and what we take from it that really makes is what it is. You CAN turn a shit story into a good one, I promise.

If you need to talk or vent, whatever, hit me up. Im here for you 100%!!!

Soooo much love to you.

<3 <3 <3 <3

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