What I was missing for so long, I finally found. And as soon as its in my hands it goes away. Just like anything else. So being positive did nothing, so trying my best did nothing, so letting myself care did nothing, nothing but hurt me. It hard to believe it after this long. Like a bullet, my heart is going to explode.
eroticgeek:
I know how that feels. It seems like no matter how you try something always smacks you in the face. In times like these nothing anyone says can really make you feel any better, but know that not all is bad in the world. You just haven't found anything worth a crap yet. I am a firm believer it exists. Finding it just may be the problem. I hope things improve. *hugs*