No chemistry...
Not between me and a single living thing.
And I don't give it up.
But how does this happen? The sparks die away and the good creatures fade.
I need to have an intense conversation. I have the desire to spark a new friendship and make my own chemistry with someone.
I just realized that I haven't had a nice lengthy, intense conversation with anybody in a long time. Maybe it's the pace of life being so frantic that hollow bouts of chatter in the car are all we get, maybe it's the overuse of online resources which funnel our connections into short snippets of what we really want people to know (I'm looking at you Twitter and MySpace) or maybe it's both.
alas, you cannot force chemistry. but kudos on the honesty.
I find myself overwhelmed and lost. all the positive energy has faded because i didnt focus and use it to be productive.
now all thats left is negative thoughts and impulses i cannot control.
i feel a heavy empty hole in my chest.
i guess this would be a cry for help? maybe
The silver lining to every shitty day in your life is that when you go to sleep, every emotion is frozen in time. That shitty day will become the past, and you will wake up in a future that is not yet determined.
That means every day you wake up is new, untouched and completely blank. What you write into history is once again your choice. You can't control every single thing in your life, but the one thing you will constantly control is yourself.
Some people take that and shape it into their reality. Others let it unravel over and over again.
I'm here in Spokane area Washington. Not even unpacked yet and looking for job,school,career options and new friends.
im with my family so i'll be ok. i will focus on my art alot more now. so things arent all bad.
