julesdoll

I am filled with insecurity. It makes my heart feel heavy.
It makes me nauseous.

Confidence one moment. Little things bring it down.
Tiny things make my heart crumble.
Maybe I'm week, or just humble.

It feels like my heart is racing, about to jump out of my chest. But I don't know if its for sorrow or love. I don't have a fucking chance do i?

I'm in Cali. Lots of crazy fun, lots of sad things. The big updates will come in a few days with pictures.

Tomorrow I leave for California. I wont be able to get online much in the next few days.
I can't wait to see some of my friends, and I'm getting my hair cut.

I went over a day without food. But it didnt lack sunshine and love. I didnt miss the fullness. I did not feel hunger for food, I felt hungry for you.

Bury me in autumn. Feel the cold dry air.
And decorate my grave, with everything I ever gave way.
I'll see you smile soon again. It doesn't take forever to get over.
Know I drove straight home. I couldn't see the road.
The windshield filled with ghosts, glittering rain.
I'd knew I'd never be ok again. No matter how the roads may bend.
What drove...
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way out of it right now.
I'm having a random life/day.
i realize i hate me.
and i love everything living things too much...

eat your love.