I give myself good advice. But I very seldom follow it.
When you get bored with hurting yourself, you let others do it for you. And it's always worse than anything I have every done to myself. Convince yourself its ok, this wont happen again. You wont be as stupid the next time and you'll know when to fucking run.
And it ends in a...
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When you get bored with hurting yourself, you let others do it for you. And it's always worse than anything I have every done to myself. Convince yourself its ok, this wont happen again. You wont be as stupid the next time and you'll know when to fucking run.
And it ends in a...
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Sex drugs rock and roll.
Thats all I want.
I didn't think I could like Deftones more than I did. That was the most mindblowing show/experience ever.
Also Baroness is the shit.
Thats all I want.
I didn't think I could like Deftones more than I did. That was the most mindblowing show/experience ever.
Also Baroness is the shit.
Chie is on the front page today! This makes me a happy girl.
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_smurfzilla_:
^_^
glad you had such an awesome time!
glad you had such an awesome time!
Deftones tonight...Yes! Fuck yes!
How many times have you had sex listening to Deftones?
More like how many times have you had sex not listening to Deftones...a lower number to count
How many times have you had sex listening to Deftones?
More like how many times have you had sex not listening to Deftones...a lower number to count
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dezziemarie:
Dude, Deftones, one of my favorite bands to fuck, sleep, dance, eat, anything too. But mostly fuck.
jb_pdxs:
I want to say it too.....FUCK YES!
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flyer:
Enjoy yourself!
chie:
you are my tomodachi too 
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rlvlk:
Can't send hugs via the internet so...
violentpatriot:
Today you should find a random cute guy and ask him for a hug! Who would say no?!
Today you should find a random cute guy and ask him for a hug! Who would say no?!The dystopia of a tastless feast.
Only a lonely heart and body.
So I wake up in the worst physical pain i have ever been in. All I could do was double over in pain and cry and scream. I managed to get a ride to the ER and find out I was acid stomach problems. Yeah predictable with the way I treat my body. Decaying on the outside to get...
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So I wake up in the worst physical pain i have ever been in. All I could do was double over in pain and cry and scream. I managed to get a ride to the ER and find out I was acid stomach problems. Yeah predictable with the way I treat my body. Decaying on the outside to get...
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jb_pdxs:
Ouch, hope you are doing ok.
I have so much to say. And there are no ears.
No ears but my own for miles to hear that scream.
That scream that ends with the taste of blood and a headache.
I have music. I have that at least right now. I need some fucking zen.
No ears but my own for miles to hear that scream.
That scream that ends with the taste of blood and a headache.
I have music. I have that at least right now. I need some fucking zen.
violentpatriot:
some zenax!
methodology:
Speak on here, we will always listen
When your heart is deep your love and hatred can consume you.
And when I hate it hurts me.
And when I love it hurts more.
I dont want to want anything at all.
But I want to smile at pain, and take all I'm given.
And I will give plenty. And those who take it for granted are still taking what I give.
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And when I hate it hurts me.
And when I love it hurts more.
I dont want to want anything at all.
But I want to smile at pain, and take all I'm given.
And I will give plenty. And those who take it for granted are still taking what I give.
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user209834982:
you are soooo tiny!
Ok today I'm feeling much better. Really all of your words did make a difference. I had time to really ponder. Really I'm not against the idea still, but its not for me. I have too many unfinished projects, too many places I want to go. And my heart hurts a lot. I'm lonely as hell, but that can change. And it will.
I made...
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remod66:
Now THAT'S the spirit... and you posted it because you KNEW we were there to see it, no?
I absolutely LOVE that Medusa-esque art...
...and yes, you can and should LAUGH in the face of depression!
Think of me as "dial a joke" whenever you need one...
I absolutely LOVE that Medusa-esque art...
...and yes, you can and should LAUGH in the face of depression!
Think of me as "dial a joke" whenever you need one...
jb_pdxs:
Good to hear.
Sometimes I feel like my words dont matter. I really have no one to talk to in real life. No friends who will actually answer me. And I just left the hospital less than a week ago. I'm not trying to be dramatic here. I'm honestly fucking hopeless and lonely. It hurts deeply. I feel like I'm somehow not good enough. But I try so...
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jb_pdxs:
I like this piece too. There is so much worth hanging around for. Art, Trees, Wildlife, The Ocean, days when you just feel right no matter how often they come or don't, great food, some...some people, great cities all over the world that someday you will visit if you desire, history and stories, just so much. I know your area is somewhat remote, is there an activity you can get involved in so your not isolating more than too much? Like a knitting group, or bike club, or can you start an art collective in your area that you head up and other artists can team up with you?
trills:
I think trying to make sense of things is asking for trouble. I tend to wing it now, but I'm no expert. You have to find your own reason to live, which is quite impossible if you're dead. Suicide is a waste, it makes life cheap. You're not alone, there are plenty of us that will muddle through with you, and things will get better.
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chie:
thank you very much StitchedDoll 
you are alright now
you are alright now
chie:
how sweet. i mean your comment on my set. thank you very much StitchedDoll, i love you.
Human nature. Some of us that as a defense mechanism and keep coming back for...abuse...because we want to help.