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What I was missing for so long, I finally found. And as soon as its in my hands it goes away. Just like anything else. So being positive did nothing, so trying my best did nothing, so letting myself care did nothing, nothing but hurt me. It hard to believe it after this long. Like a bullet, my heart is going to explode.
eroticgeek:
I know how that feels. It seems like no matter how you try something always smacks you in the face. In times like these nothing anyone says can really make you feel any better, but know that not all is bad in the world. You just haven't found anything worth a crap yet. I am a firm believer it exists. Finding it just may be the problem. I hope things improve. *hugs*
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xhippykid:
Keep on truckin'
xheartswornx:
I see I stumbled upon a blog a bit too late for birthday wishes, but happy belated birthday anyway!
I thought I'd also mention that the glasses in a prior blog are really cute so I'm in agreement with you from that post. Also, I have to admit curiosity when *spoilers* exist and what I found was a smile that cheered me up. Even if it may be more of a little smirk, the sun and your very gorgeous eyes brought on a vibrancy that reached deep down and brought a little light my way.
Take that knowledge as you may, but I hope you do feel good because I definitely saw some of that good in that smile and in those eyes. I won't bog you down with random person advice, but still wanted to share my observations. smile
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Thank you everyone for your sweet birthday wishes!

I'm 21 now and I don't feel very different. But I do feel free.
My birthday was amazing. The special brownies I made were so good. I ate them and went hiking with my friend. I did go bar hoping at night but I just gave my friend all of my free drink tokens.
I really wanted...
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the_captain:
Yay you are staying! I hope someday to get to meet up with you!biggrin
user209834982:
You're such a youngin
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user209834982:
Happy birthday darlin!
burntsolace:
Happy freaking birthday!
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Fun fact- It doesn't matter how big your dick is, if you can't play an instrument or have any artistic talent, I'm not going to fuck you.
If you can play an instrument with your dick, marry me.

Ok I'm adding to this because I don't want to make two blogs in one day.
This is me. I actually use my glasses mostly for night...
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lil_louie:
I think your body is great, and you are definitely sexy, glasses or no glasses. I won't say anything about the first part of the blog, even though I want to. lol
silverandcold666:
hahah your so funny! and i love your body!! but i wouldnt post mine on the internet for a million bux!!! hahhaa happy birthday gorgeous!

ps
i play guitar and bass...but i suck at both hahahaha
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jb_pdxs:
Sounds like things are looking up, great to hear!!!
jb_pdxs:
Freddie Mercury always lifts my spirits, very missed.
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Useless. As hard as I try, I feel useless. I put so much passion into what I feel is right. So much passion and love into what I believe. And I put passion into everything I do.
It gets me no where, in fact people end up hating me because I have these ideas and because I believe something they do not.
I know I'm...
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remod66:
You know how a recovering alcoholic is always "recovering" and never "recovered?" It's a state of being. You're not going to "win" but you're going to keep going. Stand strong--and know that you're loved and respected.
flyer:
You are not useless. You have so much to offer the world. Keep painting. Your work is inspired and original. Keep that PMA(Positive Mental Attitude).
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Maybe I'm too mental, or maybe I just have rotten luck.
Sometimes I expect good things to happen, then they don't.
Bad things happen to me. I don't want to accept that, but its just true.
I get the shitty end of every game people play.
It's like I'm the girl everyone ends up fucking over.
I've said it before, I need to rip out...
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cuprinus:
Sorry things are so rough right now. Life is truly it's darkest just before dawn. I think that if you are true to your self and do all the things that you love to do, then the passion and happeness will shine on that lovely face and people will begin to gravitate to you and want to share in all that is you. People are strange, and I have yet to figure out why they behave the way they do. You just have to hang tough and stay your course. Things will get better. Just think, life is about balance, if you have all the bad now, then all that is left is the happiness! smile
_smurfzilla_:
*hug*
hope things get better
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Right now my parents are going to lose their house. Then travel and live in a RV.

That leaves me homeless. I thought I might have a place to go in California but it turns out my friends there are to busy to fucking care or are equally as helpless.
I already have no fucking money. So now on top of that I get to...
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tadzi:
i wish i could help. dont be too proud to ask for help. theres some good people here.
rlvlk:
eeekfrowneeek

I really wish there was something I could do. Happy thoughts just don't cut it.
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Fuck, life sucks sometimes. I get over it eventually.
This time I must make the things I want and not wait for disappointment.
Cheer up and fit in, or someone might think you're weird.

This perpetually gloomy doll is smiling. smile

"Tomorrow you're homeless, Tonight its a blast."-Dead Kennedys
heartbaker:
smile
tadzi:
you should go on AIM right now.