juju33

I am so fucking happy. I just can't stop smiling.
I made up with my friend who I was fighting with. I don't know why, but I always feel at home when I am with him. There is this comfort thing, like warm cereal and brown sugar. He smiles and all the muscles in my body relax. Fighting with him was terrible, and I am...
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So we started spending all this time together, as friends. But I coud feel him getting anxious, and I knew there would be a confrontation about sex....Towards the end of the night he started getting that look in his eye, and I knew he would want sex. So I started going over all the things in my head...and decided I should deffinetly not have sex...
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I am angry with a friend, and for the first time in my life I told him so. No drama or name calling, just told him he was a jerk and left it at that. Normally I would be calling him asking why he hasn't apologized yet but for the first time, I just don't care. It's not my fault and I'm not going to...
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My wife is beautiful.
I just had the need to say that

Well the love (the love), for you (for you)
So long, I've been saving
But tonight, it's made for me and you

You can ring my be-e-ell, ring my bell
My bell, ring it!

I can't stop thinking about a kiss I had the other day. The boy has this amazing ability to gently pull my lip into his mouth and run his tongue along...
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When I was two years old I survived spinal meningitis. Due to the very high fever I suffered brain damage that included a speech impediment. I went through years of speech therepy, but still, if I am relaxed, I occasionally sound a little like a stroke victim.
Today, a bartender cut me off after less than one drink because I was sluring my words. If...
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OK, I have stopped taking those terrible birth control pills that make make me crazy, but I still don't feel up to par, and might write something stupid if I start to journal. So, I will check in with everyone later.
kisses

So, 15 days of no sex wouldn't be so bad if someone would just fucking touch me or something. I would give my left breast to lay on a couch with somone and just be held. I am at this bizzare place where I have no one I care about except my wife, so when she is unavailable, I am just so lonely.
I am...
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On saturday I went to a party and I got to learn to top. I used a flogger and my hands, my fists, my nails, I pulled hair. It was great. I'm still such a bottom though, because Tea, who was the top who was helping me was so frustrated that I kept saying sorry, finally said "Everytime you apologize I'm going to hit you"...
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Bored of writing journal entries. Here's a poem

Play With Me

Play with me.
Tickle me in tragic places,
and make them smile.
Kiss me,
With leather licks,
and vinyl tongues.
Embrace me with your sacred straps,
your loving bondage.
Let me know the hunger,
untill I am full with it.
Hurt me so I know I am loved.
Every pore of me,
lapping at...
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