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Tuesday May 17, 2005

May 17, 2005
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Weirdosity.

Had a get together for some friends who are graduating college. Someone (not me) incidentally invited Liz (she's my ex-special lady) to the show. So this is two parties in two weeks that we've both been at, the last one at her place, this one at mine. Otherwise, I haven't had to talk to her in a year and a half.
We actually talked for a while, innocent talk, whatever friends talk about (yeah, I used the word talk three times in a sentence...).
I still love that girl so much. I'm really trying my best not to be creepy about it, I'm not stalking her or anything, but I can't get over her for the past two years. This from a guy who's never dated a girl for more than 6 months (and that was long for me). I've tried as hard as I can to forget about her. I've been with plenty of girls after her, from one nighters to serious relationships, and I didn't compare them to her, but I was never able to get her out of my head.
I'm trying to be completely realistic and rational about it. I know her flaws, I just don't care. I know she probably doesn't ever even think about me, but I always feel the need to qualify that: for instance, with the word, "probably".
I'm really a very rational person. Not uptight, but science is my religion. Feelings are made of chemicals and electric impulses. A brilliant mind could make a giraffe fall in love with a sperm whale. Still, I believe in one connection. I don't yet see how a second connection to a different person could be as strong as the first.
Anyway, I'm rambling as usual.
She's a writer. She'll graduate next year. She's got ADD maybe as bad as my brother. She's the best female ultimate player I've ever seen. She said she only stayed with it because of me (I love that). She liked to push me out of bed, but felt so bad about it the one or two times she succeeded. She's almost got a Boston accent. Our first date was at the HC sauna, where I told her all of the embarrassing things she did at a party the night before. She's got the most beautiful brown eyes I've ever gazed into. She's got one dimple. She's hardcore. I love her.

Sorry if you actually read this whole post, but it made me feel a lot better.
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