I spent the entire day sleeping. I woke up around ten but just laid around and eventually fell back to sleep and then again at three and did the same thing again. I got up finally at about twenty minutes to six. There was nothing I had to do today, and I didn't feel up to snuff emtoionally to want to deal with anything.
My dad offered to put some gas in my car today to help me out, but I declined. I felt bad about taking anything from him right now. I need the gas badly right now. I've been walking everywhere trying to conserve. My personal money is almost nonexistant right now. I've been unemployed now for about two months out of choice. I feel like complete shit. I'm thinking of getting a grave yard shift some where. I don't want to deal with people right now, and I know that if I'm working nights I won't have to deal with as many.
I should get a job, but I don't feel like looking for one, or working at one that would hire someone like me. I wish I could have sex with Laura right now even if it would only make things worse. I don't care- I don't want to feel like this anymore.
It's been a few days now since the break up and I still haven't told my parental units about it. I think my mom figured it out though. Today when we were talking about how my college was coming along she asked me if it would be best if she started taking down the pictures of Laura around the house. I said yeah and I think it pretty much ended whatever doubt she had about the whole thing. Happy she knows. Sad to be alone.
I've decided not to cut my hair for at least a year so that'll be at least February 7th, 2007 before I do that. I've considered not shaving for the year either and seeing how that goes. I don't have a girlfriend so I don't have to worry about how it feels when someone else kisses me.
I'm going to sell my soul, or rather lease my soul, on Ebay. If anyone is interested please look up cosmo93536 on Ebay. I should list it within the hour.
My dad offered to put some gas in my car today to help me out, but I declined. I felt bad about taking anything from him right now. I need the gas badly right now. I've been walking everywhere trying to conserve. My personal money is almost nonexistant right now. I've been unemployed now for about two months out of choice. I feel like complete shit. I'm thinking of getting a grave yard shift some where. I don't want to deal with people right now, and I know that if I'm working nights I won't have to deal with as many.
I should get a job, but I don't feel like looking for one, or working at one that would hire someone like me. I wish I could have sex with Laura right now even if it would only make things worse. I don't care- I don't want to feel like this anymore.
It's been a few days now since the break up and I still haven't told my parental units about it. I think my mom figured it out though. Today when we were talking about how my college was coming along she asked me if it would be best if she started taking down the pictures of Laura around the house. I said yeah and I think it pretty much ended whatever doubt she had about the whole thing. Happy she knows. Sad to be alone.
I've decided not to cut my hair for at least a year so that'll be at least February 7th, 2007 before I do that. I've considered not shaving for the year either and seeing how that goes. I don't have a girlfriend so I don't have to worry about how it feels when someone else kisses me.
I'm going to sell my soul, or rather lease my soul, on Ebay. If anyone is interested please look up cosmo93536 on Ebay. I should list it within the hour.