jthrak

so this is what happens when you don't do a single damn thing all day...interesting. i thought I had one of these days before but apparently it went much more productive. wrote a song today...don't know where to go with it now but yeah, there it is.

I had a very awesome conversation last nite with an amazingly fab gal and she made me realize something, we are all just insecure, fucked-up emotionally and for the most part afraid, yes afraid...afraid of getting hurt over and over and over...afraid of exposing our true core to other people and finally, afraid to realize / internalize that we just keep going at it, letting people take advantage or even us taking advantage of them yet not stopping because what would be the point, at least we get to feel...right?...so fucked. so intense. so sad. but it is what we do...much rather be around people that like you than be alone...

in other news....

txting has become an issue for me, well I mean, I've always loved doing it but I guess my new posse, we are all really keen on txting each other as we hang...TOGETHER. I don't get it, but I enjoy it, fo' sho'

I think one of my co-workers is a scientologist who read my religion status on facebook a while back and figured I wasn't having a laugh at it, so now he wants to go to their meeting and all that...I am mildly tempted.

Planet Xe nu... here we go. je ne se pas.

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good one, right?

i really like this video.