jthrak

warning rant ahead, not that anyone really reads this, I guess I am warning myself then.

it is a horrible rainy florida afternoon here and I'm feeling it. I got a response from the latest job query, they said no. well that's just fucking dandy!....thanks...really. i keep on making music, keep trying to be productive and entrusting my senses, there will be something better...soon. last nite went out to Necropolis, strange, hadn't been there in ages...felt good to see everyone, not so good seeing everyone doing and looking the exact same thing they were a year ago.

bones to pick, bones to pick....Ah! yes.

a very good or well was, a very good friend has chosen to disappear from my life for no particular reason, we were the best of pals but i guess it's true sex can kill something, i choose to say love kills, that's what was happening....she was allergic to relationships i guess or so i gathered. well it is what it is, im not going to dig deeper.


i've been lucky to have fantastic people around me for the most part and i hate to see them waste away. i wonder if they view me the same sometimes. i don't know.....

so many new records, so much new porn...they go hand in hand in hand. i get very attached to my porn, not wanting to delete for weeks or months, now it's getting to be a good chunk of gigs that need to be repositioned.
asap.



want this for xmas...actually i've been wanting this since 98'