So my phone just decided to say "fuck you" to me....
I was lying in bed and all of a sudden the screen of my phone started flashing like a strobe light. I have only had this phone for a couple of months. I have had no issues with it till now. I have tried everything I could think of to fix it with no luck. I even did a factory reset, still no luck. I did a little research and from what I can gather is that it is a hardware issue. Which basically means there isn't shit I can do about it. I have to carry it to try and get it fixed. I have warranty and insurance on it so that shouldn't be an issue. So my wife is going to take it with her when she leaves for work in the morning and drop it off to see if they can fix it. Hopefully they can and hopefully I will have it back tomorrow night.
So now I am sitting here, for the third night in a row, unable to sleep. I have been pretty stressed here lately. It just seems that every little thing that could go wrong has. Nothing major. Just a bunch of small things constantly happening one after the other. It doesn't take much for me to get stressed. For those that know me well know that I suffer from anxiety and depression. The more stressed I get the more depressed I become and more trouble I have keeping my anxiety in check. This in turn causes me to suffer from insomnia. When I cant sleep I get more stressed which then in turn cause my insomnia to worsen and so on and so on. It is a one hell of a cycle that is hard to break. I am so tired. So stressed. I have been to numerous doctors and nothing they do ever helps. Usually going to the doctor makes things worse to be honest. The only thing that I have ever found that actually helps is weed. Problem is that it is illegal here (which is just fucking stupid)!!! This means for me to get it I need a dealer. The dealer I always used moved across the country about a year ago. With my anxiety it makes it hard to go out and find a new supplier. I also live in a small town so not only are there not that many options but our police force crack down on it hard. Which means even less dealers in this area. I get lucky every now and then and stumble across someone with a little willing to share but haven't found me a steady supplier. So yea..... that's my rant for tonight.....
Now to.... well, I don't really know what to do now. I am sitting here staring at this screen, tired, frustrated, annoyed, and wishing I could just escape from reality for a little while. One word to describe my current state....... FUCK!!!!!