So today is my wife and my anniversary. Been together almost 9 years and married 3. We have 2 fabulous daughters. We have a fantastic relationship and family. I am so happy and lucky to have such a wonderful woman to spend my life with. Well we were supposed to celebrate this past weekend but she ended up sick and we couldn't do anything. Then today she had to work and now I am sick. Then the most frustrating thing happens. As some of you may know, we have been trying to get our money situation fixed and we are so close. We finally got ourselves out of this financial hole we have been in for years. This has been a hell of a year and finally we had succeed. Then today we find out the bank fucked up something in our account so it showed we were even more in the negative then we were before. We call to fix it and they apologize and say it'll take at least 3 days to fix. Till then we will have literally less than no money. We have bills and things to take care of in those few days. Which means by the time the bank fixes their problem we will have put ourselves back in that damn hole we had finally gotten out of. That is so fucked up. As I said before we have a damn near perfect relationship and family. At least as good as it can get. We got to talking and realized that the only problem we actually have is money. All of our struggles could be fixed with some extra cash. And we were right there. We had gotten ourselves to that point. We climbed our way out and we're finally going to be out of this struggle. Then some stupid shit like this happens and fuck us beyond recognition. And all that we can do is shit back and take it. I am begging for something to go right. Please let us get through this bullshit and get back on our feet. We started this year spending months in the hospital and my wife and new born almost not making it, I have given all I have, sold everything I had. My movie collection I spent years building, all of my music equipment that I have been using and earning since I was 16.(It was a lot) all of my amps and guitars and pedals and processors. All I ask is for this struggle to be over. Not asking to be rich or anything. I just want to be able to stand on our own two feet. We have planned and worked and clawed our way so close to that point only to have it ripped away because someone typed something into a computer wrong..... really....REALLY!!!
Sorry for the rant. It has just been a frustrating and highly disappointing day. I know there are many people out there with much more and much worse problems than we do. But this is my family and this is what I have been fighting for, living for, sacrificed for. There is a lot more to what we have been through to that put us so far in the hole and so much that has brought us so close to finally in getting out. It's hard not to feel beaten and broken at this moment.
For all of those that have helped us get as close to success as we came thank you. It really means so much to use.
I could so use a miracle right now....to bad I don't believe in that kinda thing....
Again, sorry for the rant. Hope you all have a much better day/week than we have....
