jstar

Ok, I've got to sort this out now.

It's always harder when someone is more interested than you are, but I thought we'd resolved this months ago. But 2 out of the last three weekends she's turned up crying on my doorstep at two in the morning.

I know she's not crying about me, and I don't mind being there as a shoulder to cry on, but this is getting ridiculous. She seems to want sex as a way of making her feeling better and I don't seem to be able to say no.

Is it because I'm too lazy to talk it through with her properly (but I have several times), is it 'cos I want sex (my hearts not really in it with her), or is it because deep down, everybody needs to feel wanted, and when she's down she turns to me for emotional and sexual feel-goods.

Either way, it's got to stop. I don't want her in my bed anymore! Can't explain why, I just don't.

[Mental note: be more of a bastard - I'm good when I've got a bit of danger about me. Also, really need that ruthless edge at the moment, gonna be a tough couple of months ahead, what with jobs etc.]

I must ring/email people I haven't seen in ages and must sort out holiday in Europe.

Must do, must do!!