jpuddin76

Another setback. So many questions...so little answers. I feel like my entire life over the past year has been a lie. I can't stop shaking and I constantly feel like I am going to be sick. I love too much and I hurt too much, but I still hold out hope. I always will. I have no catchy lyrics, just pure human tragedy. I am...
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"Crack Pipes"


i'd give a 21 gun shot salute...
with the toy rifle that you bought me, but it won't shoot.

and all is well, because there's been one too many shots.
the sterile robots want to talk to me about detox.

stop the presses. there's been an update delivered via 1:30a.m. phone call.
when an only half-informative source talks discretely...

meet me...at the family...
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"One Step To Slip"

It's one step to slip off the edge to trip,
And roll tumbling over everything standing in the way,
That's bled dry and decayed.

All and all we walk or crawl.
Either way still covering ground,
In banners or bandages.
All and all we walk or crawl,
Dressed up right or naked and plain,
In banners or bandages.

I'll call up...
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I am feeling very depresso as of late, it makes me wish I liked The Cure ( ) or Morrisey (double ). I am my own worst enemy (this true). This here is one of the better singles by AK3...enjoy:

We can never break up
We can never not show
We can never go home
No, we can never elope

We've only got one choice...
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"Ink And Lead"

In the distance, far away but clear
Was a light that blinded everything and near,
Was an opening so inviting
That question and fear just disappeared
Then the path was seen
Like recalling dreams
With the wits of knowing them both apart

Hold on
Hold onto the feeling that pulls us through

And we will survive time after time
And all these...
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I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Can you save me?
From myself
From these memories

Counting scars and counting blessings loud...so loud.

If you say it now, there are already roses on our graves.



I don't know which is worse sometimes, the death of a loved one, or the conduct of those left behind. I might possibly have the most deranged family East of the Mississippi.

I made Blackberry muffins. Yes, they are better than yours. No, you can't have any. Today muffins, tomorrow the world.

Shifting all the time, the ebb and flow...pulling me with it.
Asking me all the time to give in to it.

I have spent the last 2 days bouncing between Germany, Belgium, and the Netherlands. 2 days of travel to do an hours worth of work...It's probably a good thing I don't get paid by the hour. Quick recap...Germany , The Netherlands , Belgium ....
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My heat has been turned on...this is good. I turn 29 on Sunday...I honestly never thought I'd live this long. At least I am not in a warzone for this birthday...glass half full or something.