I just want to feel loved. I know there are people around me that love me but I don't really feel it. I don't know why. Maybe I want to much? Maybe I'm just not grateful for what I do have? I don't know....maybe. It is so hard for me to be happy. I know there are things I can do that would make a...
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I GOT A JOB!!
Been in Florida for a few months and I finally got a job! It isn't the best job in the world but it is a start. Wish me luck! Not to mention, I met some really great people down here. One of them happens to be a tattoo artist that loves to hook me up. We have the same taste in...
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Been in Florida for a few months and I finally got a job! It isn't the best job in the world but it is a start. Wish me luck! Not to mention, I met some really great people down here. One of them happens to be a tattoo artist that loves to hook me up. We have the same taste in...
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Alright, SO, I am a few chapters into my book, and it just took off. The characters are running away with it! I had an idea that, maybe, I would post a chapter up here once a week and see what you all think about it. Hopefully someone reads this and can reply to me. I can put it on the writiers group OR I...
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Damn, I wish there was a bigger music scene here in SoFl. I come from NJ where there is a good show everynight of the week! Is it just me, and not knowing where to look, or does the scene suck down here? I've been looking pretty damn hard but I cannot seem to find too much....G.B.H. is coming up soon, so that is cool!...
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So...I'm back!
Yeah...clean again! Let's make it last this time Joshua!
Finally, I am doing what needs to be done. No more living on the streets or in crackhouses. No more spending every cent I have then stealing YOURS to cop some more. No more blah blah blah.....
Yeah...clean again! Let's make it last this time Joshua!
Finally, I am doing what needs to be done. No more living on the streets or in crackhouses. No more spending every cent I have then stealing YOURS to cop some more. No more blah blah blah.....
I'm about done with this recovery shit. I have no motivation for this anymore. Told my sponsor I was going home and sorry for wasting his time. All I want is a needle in my arm. Fuck this shit. I don't want to do it. "Play the tape all the way through..." Well, I have and I am ready to go back out on the...
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Blah! INSOMNIA!
100 mgs of trazodone is not cutting it tonight. My camera broke and my phone froze up. Yesterday made a year since my little girl passed away and I haven't been able to talk to my family for days. I've been eating nothing but mac and cheese and ramen noodles for two weeks. I'm trying to be grateful for what I DO have...
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100 mgs of trazodone is not cutting it tonight. My camera broke and my phone froze up. Yesterday made a year since my little girl passed away and I haven't been able to talk to my family for days. I've been eating nothing but mac and cheese and ramen noodles for two weeks. I'm trying to be grateful for what I DO have...
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darksong:
Good luck to you. Maybe if you try to live more in the now and not focus on the past or future as much, that will help. The locals only hangouts are probably the best places to meet cool people in Florida. Tourist hang outs in Florida are usually lame in comparison.