jphi69

I know I should be feeling good about myself since I got a job but I have a feeling that it's not going to last. I am not going to quit this job now but somehow I am getting a weird vibe about this. It's a canvassing job for the Sierra Club and another activist movements. It's a nice cause to have and considering how political I am, it should work out but I am not so sure. They have quotas I have to deal with plus I am only getting paid 5 hours out of the 8. I guess the 3 is volunteering. I also get paid a percentage of what money donations I gain per evening. I am still going to look for another job but I am so stressed out right now. I have also been having trouble sleeping. The website isn't doing as good as I was hoping it would, Ebay sales are sluggish, rent and bills are piling up, and I get the feeling I may never get out of the hole I am in. I may have to end up living with my Grandma in Tacoma if things don't improve. I don't want that to happen. If it does, I am not going to move back to Seattle.

I am fucking bummed out right now!