Father's Day is coming. Hooohumm!
I have a justified reason to not observe such a holiday. Let's just say I never had any real father figures in my life. I had a pretty distant relationship with my biological Dad. He was always cold and self-centered. He still is actually. I never really got to know him until I moved in with him when I was 15.
I thought he would be a great Dad but those five years with him diminished my thoughts of him. I was very disillusioned. Especially when he kicked me out on Christmas Eve. I turned 20 that day and though I was going to college and had a job. He tossed me out without any warning or anything. I have held that against him ever since. He and I always disagreed on just about everything. I have not spoken to him in about three years. It maybe a while before I ever really talk to him if ever.
My Stepdad was a total mindfucker and he also sexually molested me and beat me. It was this reason I moved to live with my Dad. I seriously considered killing my Stepdad if I had to stay with him and my Mom. No joke.
The only person who I could have any high reverence as a male/father figure was my Grandfather. He would always be there for me to talk and he would take me fishing and go for walks. He even gave me my first little taste of beer!
I wished he would have found out the crap my Stepdad was doing to me. He would have had me taken to live with him and my Grandma and stepdad would be in the slammer! I was devastated when the day my Grandfather died.
So I would rather have no part in such a holiday. I would rather celebrate the coming Summer solstace!
I have a justified reason to not observe such a holiday. Let's just say I never had any real father figures in my life. I had a pretty distant relationship with my biological Dad. He was always cold and self-centered. He still is actually. I never really got to know him until I moved in with him when I was 15.
I thought he would be a great Dad but those five years with him diminished my thoughts of him. I was very disillusioned. Especially when he kicked me out on Christmas Eve. I turned 20 that day and though I was going to college and had a job. He tossed me out without any warning or anything. I have held that against him ever since. He and I always disagreed on just about everything. I have not spoken to him in about three years. It maybe a while before I ever really talk to him if ever.
My Stepdad was a total mindfucker and he also sexually molested me and beat me. It was this reason I moved to live with my Dad. I seriously considered killing my Stepdad if I had to stay with him and my Mom. No joke.
The only person who I could have any high reverence as a male/father figure was my Grandfather. He would always be there for me to talk and he would take me fishing and go for walks. He even gave me my first little taste of beer!
I wished he would have found out the crap my Stepdad was doing to me. He would have had me taken to live with him and my Grandma and stepdad would be in the slammer! I was devastated when the day my Grandfather died.
So I would rather have no part in such a holiday. I would rather celebrate the coming Summer solstace!
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delilahb:
so what you doing? are you still in seattle? coming to post falls soon?
maitressedemence:
there are too many holidays where you have to buy gifts for people that you wouldn't even think about buying stuff for any other day of the year...