jpguinness

There are some days when I am so fucking happy I could shout and there are days when I feel so fucking down I cannot do anything.

I have so much on my mind right now. I sometimes feel like I am overwhelmed.

I should be happy though. My job became permanent (YIPEEE!). My money flow is going to be normal now and yet I find myself in a situation I cannot seem to get out of. And everytime I try to do something about it, I get burned or it all does not turn out the way I planned. Like my website. I am two months behind on updates and I am not able to pay any models to pose. The bank that provides my credit card "double-dipped" my checking account to get the money for my card payments, and I am still trying to get caught up on paying my rent. I hate it when my landlord keeps giving me notes reminding me I should pay on time. Even though I have been giving them my money.

I am currently looking for a second job. I am not too crazy about the idea, but until I can get caught up I will have no fucking choice. There isn't much out there that looks like something I want to do. I am also going back to selling stuff I have on Ebay.

Stay tuned. Things have to get better....I hope!