joyrider

spent the weekend in seattle with old friends. it was so good, so packed with things i had been missing for years. it was something i needed badly.

now, i have to make some decisions. i love portland and my friends here. financially, though, i am getting mauled. my family is really pushing me to come to colorado and work on paying off some debt and go to school for a semester or two. i could come back to portland in a year or so - the idea being that i'd have much less money pressure. i don't know. i don't want to leave, the idea of going back to colorado makes me physically ill, but i don't know how i could possibly stay, either.

there are no sure things. sometimes, though, i really wish there were such an animal.