joyrider

there is a decided lack of passion in my life. that distresses me.

here is why i have struggled with traditional buddhism: i refuse to give up passion. i think there is room for passion, and compulsion, because these feelings are a natural part of human existance. commonly, these would be associated as symptomatic of samsara - the veil of suffering that obscures our concept of the universe as-it-truly-is. i don't know if i believe that. ultimately, all roads lead to rome (or nirvana) - hence tantrayana buddhism. in tantra, you follow the left-hand path, and immerse yourself in the sensual realm. however, it's a very slippery path, and tantra is taught by masters. no tantrika is supposed to go it alone. i question that a lot.

maybe i should've posted that in the eastern religion group. whatever.

something else i've been thinking about:

as sg grows, and the lowest common denominator goes even lower, i worry that the people i relate to around here will slowly start to disappear. that's how it works everywhere else - online and off. that's just the way of things. i hope that the groups + journals will stave off the exodus.

if you want to read something more right-brained that i wrote, you can go here:

http://synchronaut.diaryland.com/