have i mentioned recently how much i hate being poor? i've been broke before - broke is really no big deal. being poor sucks, though. i'm not a big fan of paying bills, but i'm even less fond of getting threatening phone calls from collection vultures.
it's funny...doesn't really matter how good your payment history has been. once they smell blood and that cash flow...
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it's funny...doesn't really matter how good your payment history has been. once they smell blood and that cash flow...
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...have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves... Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now... And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
rainer maria rilke
(the poet, not...
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rainer maria rilke
(the poet, not...
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girlblue:
The hair just stood up on the back of my neck because I have had that up on my fridge for months now...
dia:
Cathode Rays are underrated for pure their elicitation of childlike exuberance, much like various microbial specimen slides. One time (not in band camp), I found a green small insect who was dead. I had a microscope. I plopped the little man down and examined him. ACK! Don't do it. It's terrifying. He was all eyeballs and green snot blood and I would think of him whenever I'd drink Chartreuse, he was some sort of lost God from an equally lost dream I once had.
More about cathode rays.
Recombinant cathode ray and bug=pure unadulterated fun (like the Fly? Jeff Goldblum was so good in that).
My excitation is palpable.
More about cathode rays.
Recombinant cathode ray and bug=pure unadulterated fun (like the Fly? Jeff Goldblum was so good in that).
My excitation is palpable.
toight i was all set to go on a walk. the clouds are hanging low over portland, everything is still, everything is muffled. tonight portland is under salome's veil.
i made it as far as the backyard. in between the kitchen counter and the dusty red gate, amon tobin's echoing jazz smoke filled my lungs. i danced silently on the concrete, ducking branches from the...
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i made it as far as the backyard. in between the kitchen counter and the dusty red gate, amon tobin's echoing jazz smoke filled my lungs. i danced silently on the concrete, ducking branches from the...
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dia:
I avoid being mean for a reason! And I'm only half-assed when defending myself: should it be for someone else, consider the other person completely dead.
I've missed the Holy Motherfucking Hell out of you. I need you to keep me grounded. Well, I fully presume you will be at the party! I will be, albeit somewhat scattered of course.
I've missed the Holy Motherfucking Hell out of you. I need you to keep me grounded. Well, I fully presume you will be at the party! I will be, albeit somewhat scattered of course.
likittysplit:
oh boy do i have good news...... find me... and i'll share... 
i am bothered by something. there's someone on the site that professes to be buddhist but tends towards arrogance and spite in board posts.
maybe confused is a better word. i'm bothered because i'm confused.
one of the tenets - possibly the most important tenet - is lovingkindness. when we accept we are all one, then compassion follows.
doesn't it?
maybe confused is a better word. i'm bothered because i'm confused.
one of the tenets - possibly the most important tenet - is lovingkindness. when we accept we are all one, then compassion follows.
doesn't it?
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belmondo:
a vengeful buddhist?
andshewas:
nothing to do with your journal, but i am madly in love with julie doiron. perfect music to curl up with a book to. bravo.
i just wrote a long entry about how pissed off i am that everything i've written lately seems forced.
it got lost. the internet ate it.
maybe the cosmos is trying to give me a hint.
it got lost. the internet ate it.
maybe the cosmos is trying to give me a hint.
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belmondo:
I was going to write you some advice about taking a step away from writing for a bit. Thats what I do with my photography, but really anything I say is irrelevant because it's within you. So only you can fix or correct or cure the problem. Sometimes meeting someone new or having a new experience can trigger a response that spirals into you being creative and open. And be truthful to yourself always.
alexcuervo:
thanks!
on the agenda:
- buy cigarettes
- buy a 12-pack of pabst
- buy whiskey
- consume above products
i need to remind myself why i don't drink much these days.
- buy cigarettes
- buy a 12-pack of pabst
- buy whiskey
- consume above products
i need to remind myself why i don't drink much these days.
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s5:
moon in pisces.
moon in pisces.
moon in pisces.
moon in pisces.
moon in pisces.
likittysplit:
thank you for makin' my day ... i am no longer friendless... and congrats on the new markings !!!
i can't wait to see pics, soon i hope...
your artist is incredible... i must make it to portland for sure now...
i can't wait to see pics, soon i hope...
your artist is incredible... i must make it to portland for sure now...
so i found out that getting a tattoo is good for one's focus. the thing buzzed like an angry bee and skipped across my back. my aum is black and white and grey. i can't wait to see it again.
i helped swingkitten adopt a doggy today. he is deaf and curious. i like this dog.
it was a good day, really.
i helped swingkitten adopt a doggy today. he is deaf and curious. i like this dog.
it was a good day, really.
tomorrow i am getting an aum tattooed at the top of my back. i've never been tattooed before; i am a little nervous. i am happy, though - i've wanted to be marked with the Word of God for a long time.
eventually, there will be a spray of flowers on my right shoulder that will gradually metamorph into stars on my left shoulder. around...
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eventually, there will be a spray of flowers on my right shoulder that will gradually metamorph into stars on my left shoulder. around...
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eris:
mmm mmmmm tattoos....
i'm still convinced that you hate me though.
lost my number.
*pshaw*
i'm still convinced that you hate me though.
lost my number.
*pshaw*
shake it off and reinvent. you are in constant motion anyway.
tryptamine_____:
i think moving away from where one grew up is essential to one's writing. or maybe that's just me.
stockholm and helsinki are both fascinating cities, in their own ways. i didn't like helsinki much (but i was only there for about 8 hours and bitchy as hell that day anyway for several reasons.) you can take a lovely cruise ride from one to the other for about US$40. actually, when i went, it was early october, which is pretty close to when the waterways start to ice over, so it was only US$20.
stockholm and helsinki are both fascinating cities, in their own ways. i didn't like helsinki much (but i was only there for about 8 hours and bitchy as hell that day anyway for several reasons.) you can take a lovely cruise ride from one to the other for about US$40. actually, when i went, it was early october, which is pretty close to when the waterways start to ice over, so it was only US$20.
joyrider:
i have a hairdye high. *float*
it finally rained today. this is good. now the plants will be fat and happy, the asphalt will glisten, and tires will make that wet crackling sound as they spin past. portland needed rain. our yard was dead and it was starting to smell dusty. water makes ecosystems complex. you can see the biomass breathing: steam rises from grates.
water and heat always make me...
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tryptamine_____:
you should totally come visit! one of the things i'm really excited about is that i will finally get to show off sweden to my friends. i've talked about it incessantly for a year now, and finally i will get to say, "come visit me and see what i love about it so much."
s5:
the last time it rained for me, it fell on nothing that would grow.
today was boring. i cannot tell you how much it kicked ass to be bored today. i haven't been especially busy, i'm not tired - none of that. i just wanted to be lazy. i did an impressive job, even for me.
oh, i did manage to bleed a lot in the kitchen. there was a shard of beer bottle on the floor. i stepped...
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oh, i did manage to bleed a lot in the kitchen. there was a shard of beer bottle on the floor. i stepped...
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eris:
yeah... i totally forgot my cream cheese, and AN ENTIRE FREAKING BAGEL.
life is sad.
i'm at central library and i'm in love with it. they have more books on bosnia than i think i can ever possibly read. *drools over war mems*
life is sad.
i'm at central library and i'm in love with it. they have more books on bosnia than i think i can ever possibly read. *drools over war mems*
i updated my pic. i found an extra scary one from the neon blue hair phase. yikes.
in other news, i've got an apt at infinity tattoo on wednesday of next week. i am going to cry like a little girl.
in other news, i've got an apt at infinity tattoo on wednesday of next week. i am going to cry like a little girl.
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likittysplit:
YAY !!!!!!!!!!!!
jeeff:
have a great time with the tattoo! every time you want to wince, think of what is happening to you and you'll want to smile!
and about the hair, it's not red anymore. working in a law office means i've gotta look "respectabibble". so it's dark brown now. phooey.
Tane