jovanka

I am a monster
please forgive me
I am
unaware
I did not ask
to be made
I fumble through this life
trying to fit in
unaware
that I was never made to
that I was never meant to
I stand alone forever
gazing at the world
wishing I could embrace it
unaware
that it will never
embrace me in return
I try my best
to understand
what I am
and where I am going
searching for answers
and someone who understands me
unaware
that I should never try to
that I was never meant to
I remain
unaware
My heart is full of stitches
that will never come undone
Yeah it's full of something
that is meant for no one
Don't ever try to feel me
because I have no living heart
You're satisfied with nothing
and made of living parts
If you ever stumble upon me
know that I am lost
don't ever try to love me
at any fucking cost
because I know what I am

and I'm not meant for you