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I leave for Japan tomorrow morning but I will have internet......this is what I told my old lover from Lyon how I feel before my departure:

I am becoming inside myself more and more in these days and it feels mellowly good. I have stopped racing alongside the world and rest with myself in my own little stomach like a baby asleep. I notice that when I do this the people appreciate the honesty and good intentions and follow YOU anyway at 30 miles per hour. All I care is to have people with multi faceted souls around me that I can wade in up to my chest....people that have a few knick and bruises and know what pain is like and therfore have that genuine look of happiness when somebody says something amusing.....not just the absence of inconvienience.
I have turned off the news and turned on the music. I have left love for a while to spend time with myself and flirt like I did in highschool. I have stopped exercising and turned to drinking and being trite and enjoying lathargy in the hot days of enibriation. I don't want to be in the spotlight lately but rather admire others in it....and no longer consider myself in proportion to them but rather appreciate their own little operations in their own little world apart from mine.Why do girls with O's always steal my french boys?