joshof13thfloor

awwww gosh now its my time to

now lets get down to business....i have a test this afternoon and im so worried about passing it that i can not sleep.

now...in other news.

1. Why/for what reason(s) did you move to Sweden from the U.S. and do you ever plan on moving back?


My boyfriend is swedish and I had come here to visit him once before and it was too difficult to leave, and i wanted to see him again, but told him i couldnt leave again, there wouldnt be anything left of me. so he said...move in with me and i did. and now we have lived with each other 4 years in march. and its amazing because i dont hate him yet. sure i dont like him sometimes, and i know sometimes the feeling is mutual...but..........4 years is my personal longest relationship...well no make it 6 years we were together two years before i moved here. ldr do work!

2. Why do they put ON and OFF on lite switches when if it's ON then you know it's ON 'cause you can see the freakin' lite and if it's OFF then you couldn't see to read the damn thing anyway?

they do that so that the people who install them, know which way to set the plugs in the walls.
its for them, not for us!

3.What do you do/plan on doing for a living?

i want to translate movies. which is why im studying so hard. there is good money in translation.

4.Who the hell are "they"? You know how people are always saying "Well, y'know they always say..." and stuff like that, well who are "they" exactly and where can i find them because their advice annoys the living shit out of me and i want to kick "they" in the ass.

they are a collective of people, not unlike the borg, who think that they know much more than everyone else. most of these people are dead, so they dictate what they know and what we should know from beyond the grave.
the alive ones live in a batcave somewhere in metropolis.

thanks for the questions. thanks for the compliments!

im all blushy and stressed....oh geez
if i get through the day with out hyperventilating ill be shocked.

yes i know i stress too much.

Thanks for the support. I know eveything will be okay and it doesn't even really hurt that much. Guess I could tell it was going no place but I was just along for the ride.

Sounds like you had a good time with your boy.

Always amuzing to hear about pro wrestling. It always seems like one of the very hand to month business to be in that you do it because you love it.

my mind gets filled with hate and despair, than I'm pretty much useless for anything but a boob in front of the tube. Life is a sick game that we all try to play with all our hearts, but we'll eventually lose in the end.

Man, I'm piss poor at trying to cheer anyone up.

im just going thru and saying hi!
hope things are looking up today
if they arent then i will have to put a picture in my pics section gauranteed to make you laugh!

take care...let me know if i need to put one there.

you sooooo should.........

you must be somewhere in the midwest then.
its 1.30 or so here.
we are 7 hours ahead of the midwest.
im originally from kansas city.
i broke my back in a car crash. head on....lucky thing is i had my sister and a baby with me, and i was the only one that got hurt. i would have felt so guilty other wise.
well my sister got a concussion but i got a week in the hospital (with this evil cranky woman who snored) and a lifetime of back pain!

hehehe its ok, it could have been much much worse.

im thankful for what i got...

Doctors suck.

But unfortnately they're kind of useful for all that "not dying" kind of thing. Unlike lawyers. Lawyers are true evil.

Keep yer chin up. You'll make it through.

The doctor can be really scary. Especially if when you are starting to go for the first time to a new one. It sounds like you havea a good idea what is going on and the doc can probably help you out. You are probably harder on your self than the doc can ever be. Guess I have always had better experiences with docs than you which is too bad. Hang in there buddy.

Feeling better now. Guess some sleep and a good meal can help out with things. And I am still up in the air since today is a national holiday. I think I need some more of both and I will be better off. Hang in ther buddy.

I guess everyone (including me) likes the red hair better. Maybe I'll change it back sooner. Hmmm.

No, I don't vent to anyone anymore. Not about the real stuff, anyway. I guess the closest to honest expression I get is in my SG journal. How sad, huh? I'm still feeling kinda down tonight. I will go to sleep soon though. I can hope for good dreams. I normally have very vivid dreams that are like watching films. I have characters, plot, the whole bit. They are very entertaining. I could use a good one.

Goodnight. I hope that you're doing well.

*hug*

Thanks for the offer man. I know there is stuff going on but I don't have a good idea what it is right now. If I ever figure it out I will let you now.

Bummer about the guy you are working for. Hopefullyit doesn't derale what you are tryign to do to badly. Wrestling has never seemed like one things that's eay to get into.

Have a good one.

omg!!!!!! you have done so much stuff!
and youre right its all outrageous!
strange that that is your journal, i just dreamed that i kicked a guy in a wheelchair because he called some kid an asshole. im terribly protective of children and women and men. if i see anyone being attacked, physically, emotionally, mentally i usually say something.
yeah i call people names..asshole cunt stuff like that...but not unless they are being that.
if i see a parent yelling at their kid i jump all over them, i tell them to remember how it felt to be yelled at in public, blah blah
people say you dont know how it is to have a child act like that...well ya know what? i remember what it was like to be a child, have pent up energy, get a little tantrummy and get yelled at. it scarred me i think.
i saw some man yelling at his woman and i told him to shut the fuck up and her to grow some balls.
i dunno its just not on. its hard enough to keep myself up and put myself down than to sit it on other people. but i guess its cuz i was abused as a teenager that i get so defensive when i see other people doing it.
and why dont you have any pictures?=???????
waiting patiently

take care sweetie and dont think you are a pussy because you didnt say anything. there are situations when you shouldnt. and youre right she probably would have turned on you!

It sounds like a perfect day in its own right.

THEM is the best of the Atomicd Monster movies that I have seen. Night of the Lepus doesn't even come close.

Soudns like some healing might have happened. Hope you start feeling better soon.

The job search is still on going. I just have the oppurtunity to keep my insurance coverage if I pay for it. I am going to have to do it just to keep up on my meds.

And feel free to add me to your friends list. It's hard to have too many of them.

There is no shame in missing a loved one, and feeling this way is what happens when someone close to you dies.

I sometimes think of my best childhood friend who died when he was 18. It's been almost 10 years but it doesn't mean I don't miss him any less.

Memories are the only thing a person really has of someone when that someone dies, so hold onto them and do what you think is best to keep them alive.

Happy birthday to your dad.

My best friend died last december and I had a much more difficult time with my birthday than with hers. I turned 21, and it suddenly seemed so solid to me that she would never get to.

Love for you and for your dad. And if you do throw a pity party, I'll stop by and we can hug in the dark.

Love to you.

Olsen.

you are so silly!

did you read about the guy in england who died after chasing kids who egged his house? the kids got charged with murder. nice huh?

did you ever really burn bags of doggie doo? ewwwwwwwwwwwww ppppppppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. yuck

we had all of 7 yep 7 trickortreaters and they were all mother fucking witches except one who was a skeleton. and it was yesterday!
and ummm well they only got to start celebrating halloween here 4 years ago, so it is still in its infancy.

have fun hope you didnt get arrested!!!

thanks for the tip
i think ill leave it to you !
i got ummm ring and runned the other day
im not sure how to say it
well politely.
i laughed
i remember doing that to people when i was younger!
it was fun

First off. Hi. Long time, no talk. Thanks for your kind words regarding my mom. Did I already thank you?? Well, thank you.

Secondly, I read this journal entry and don't know what to think. Are you saying that you literally ended your father's life? (Feel free to email your answer to me privately.) The words that stood out to me were that you did whatever you did to protect your mom and brother. I don't know... I just read what you wrote and I can almost feel the intense pain in your heart. I'm sorry that you're hurting. I am sending you huge hug vibes. I know it doesn't really help, but just know that you are in my thoughts.